My Life in Godllywood!
For three years I was resilient in joining Godlywood, as soon as I heard about the Sisterhood I was indifferent and said it wasn’t for me.
I understood that to be part of the group I would have surrender my whole life and seek a total change.
I felt I couldn’t do that, I had too many defects and tried to change so many times and failed, that I would never change. I was being totally ignorant. When an invitation to join came, I would ignore it because I really didn’t want to join.
Why do I need to join? I have God, I have so many things to do already, I don’t have time for anything else. I’ve already prepared so many dinners I’ve set so many tables before, I didn’t see the spiritual side to it, I only saw the physical tasks. I criticized, judged, and rejected it.
I’m 48 years old and I couldn’t see Godlywood as something of God, something that will help take care of my soul. I was completely focused on my own life, that’s why I didn’t want to give up my “world”.
There was the 1st. inscription, then the 2nd, then the 3rd and three years past but I wasn’t interested. I was the boss of my own life, but sometimes I prayed to God and asked myself why I didn’t want to join. I asked God to show me or change my thoughts on Godlywood. And after reading the book V-Woman, I wanted to seek a change in my life, to truly become this virtuous woman. But in my head I wasn’t going to be part of Godlywood only V-Woman.
I started the 1st two months of tasks to join V-Woman and I was always seeking God to change me inside. I knew it wouldn’t be easy and that I would face a great battle. I knew that I wouldn’t receive this change just by completing my tasks, but it would depend on surrendering myself 100% to God.
With each task I saw a small improvement, I would learn something new but it didn’t resolve my problem.