My Life in Godllywood! Part II
I’ve been a follower of Jesus from afar, without wanting any compromises, without losing my life.
I knew I made mistakes, but I didn’t want to recognize them one by one according to the Word of God and to abandon them. I was aware of them, but thought they weren’t deadly sins.
After all, I’m human and commit sins. When it came to talk to God I would ask Him to forgive all my sins, I would treat them as a total package, not individually. I knew I was full of mistakes, and asked Him to have mercy on me. This was my life, full of anguish, bitterness, frustration, and one day I was fine, but the next I wasn’t. I wondered why I believed in a God so great and still wasn’t’ complete. Inside me there was something missing.
Until one day I decided to seek God with all my strength to know why I was living in such anguish.
And so He responded: I was being completely incredulous, not of His existence, but in trusting Him. Because of this lack of confidence I didn’t surrender myself 100%. I had some reserves. I began to ask God to put this trust inside of me. And that’s what happened, God opened my understanding to His Greatness, He showed me that I could place ALL my trust in Him, without fear, because He is powerful enough to guard me and protect me. And because of this confidence I was no longer afraid to recognize my sins and face them in order to get rid of them. Today, I feel free and I will not let this cowardly feeling imprisons me again. The only way to overcome our sins is by exposing them and not letting your eyes contaminate your heart. If our eyes are good, our body will be full of light. And the truth is I was in darkness.
Today I thank Godlywood and the tasks that I received that gave me that push I needed to overcome my cowardly feelings.
Thanks for listening to me, and for taking so many souls out of darkness.