Impatience

How many times do we think that what we do for God is not enough?

I am so grateful to my God for all that He has done for me and for that reason I always want to do more and more for Him.

I would like to share with you my experience in regards to this.
 
I am a very active person. I’m always doing something. I’m always engaged in some work or church projects, such as evangelism, PT Force, Rahab group, etc. I love it and feel very happy to have my life fully occupied with the things of God.
 
Leave something for later? Never! I’m impatient, fast and don’t like to wait for anyone. If I have to do something I take action and got to war because I need to solve what ever was entrusted to me and above all, please my Lord. I won’t say “no” when it comes to what I have to do for God. You might ask me, “What ‘s wrong with that?”
 
Everything that’s in excess makes us sick and I forgot about that! So began my problems.
 
When I realized it my physical body was worn out. Without realizing it I was harming myself by embracing all that was presented to me. I wasn’t being wise and my body suffered the consequences.
  
With all this I ended up getting sick. I overworked my body too much and I had to face the consequences such as stress, hormonal imbalance, and changes in my nervous system, among other things. I had to get medical treatment, but I didn’t know that my body was rejecting the medication and so I continued to take them.
 
I couldn’t sleep at night. I could barely stand up. My body was out of balance. I wanted to work and do everything that I had been entrusted with, but I had no strength. I felt so many things physically and that caused a revolt inside of me. I didn’t accept this because I wanted to serve my God. My lack of patience didn’t give my body time to recover. I asked God to heal me, but there was no answer and I didn’t want to wait.
 
The doctors told me that my body wasn’t able to handle all the workload and my brain didn’t have enough rest, therefore the medication wasn’t having any effect.
 
It was then that I laid down my dreams, goals, desires, and projects before God and told Him, “If You have to take everything away from me, than take it!”
 
That’s exactly what He did. He took away everything from me in order to take care of me.
 
In this fast of Daniel I asked God for patience because even though I have the Holy Spirit I didn’t possess it. I wanted to have a noticeable difference by the time this fast was over.
God took everything away from me so that I could hear His voice. He was showing me that what I was doing was not right. I overworked my body and now I couldn’t do anything because I harmed my health. What kind of benefit did I get from all this impatience or from demanding others and myself to do more and more?
 
He didn’t heal me when I used my faith because He wanted me to listen to His voice. He was taking care of me! Even though I was going through all of this I had an inward peace and certainty that He was with me and that He was in total control of my life. Now I was listening to His voice!
That’s when my body started to react, because I was no longer demanding more of myself. I gave my body time to recover from all the harm the medication and stress caused me.
 
He taught me how to say “no” to myself. He taught me not overwhelm myself and know my limits on how far I can go. Things don’t always go my way. I can’t do everything myself. I’m not “Super Woman”. That doesn’t mean that I’m not going to do anything for Him anymore, no it’s not that, but I need to be healthy because if I’m not I won’t be able to do anything anymore. He made ​​me understand that.
 
I faced difficult times, but it taught me to value my body more and to know my limits. Now I’m always attentive to the signs my body gives me because without the physical strength of my body I can’t serve God. I learned to be more patient and less demanding with others and myself. I learned that nothing is my way, but rather God’s way. I was able to hear His voice and receive the patience that I was looking for.

I learned that my faith is not limited, but my body is.