Day 6 – Observe and understand what it is to be thirsty

Hello to all the cybernauts, it’s a pleasure to be here accompanying you in these 21 days of the Fast of Daniel.

Today it’s already the 6th Day.[/p-intro]
 
 And today I wanted to read a comment from a cybernaut who left her life written … Well, I’ll read it and show you what thirst is really like. This person who illustrates and leaves in details the agony and thirst in which she finds herself.
 
She states:
 
“Hello Mrs. Viviane, good afternoon. I would like you to clear a doubt for me.
I am 21 years old, I have no boyfriend, because I have no courage to have a relationship with anyone without first having the Holy Spirit. And to be honest what I want is to be saved in order to save. I’m not the same anymore, I’ve changed many things, and the world is not appealing to me.

But my biggest problem is within me. There are disappointments from the past that until today make me react in a way that I do not like. I worry a lot about the opinion of others, because if I do the right things I get criticized, and if I don’t do it I’m also criticized. I feel inferior to others, I don’t see myself good enough, and I think that for God to make me be born of Him I have to be perfect.

When I sometimes mess up in a word that I should’ve not said, I feel like the worst creature. My parents are separated; I don’t know what it is to have a real family. I don’t know how to show affection; I see myself as a cold person. I lost the confidence in my father, and worse, I don’t know how to disguise that. I’ve already asked him for forgiveness, but I still do not believe in him, I’m always suspicious. I’m the opposite of what I would like to be, I have a bit of a temper, and the truth is that I have nothing of God.
Mrs. Vivi, I’m tired of the hypocrisy, pretending to be something I’m not, I really want God. I don’t want to live in delusion; I want to truly be born of God.

I don’t want the glory of men; I want the one from God. I don’t even know where to begin, because there are so many accusations!
I talk to God about my mistakes, and don’t understand why I feel like I have a scream in the depths of my soul, a very big dissatisfaction. Mrs. Vivi, I’m willing to truly sacrifice my life to God, even though I don’t feel like it, I’m willing. I want to know who this God who I hear about is, but that I don’t know, I want to have Him inside of me, I want to be like Abraham. I recognize that the problem is me. What do I do Mrs. Vivi? I’ll put into practice whatever you say to me, and also the lessons that you have given me through these audios. Kisses Mrs. Vivi, May God bless you very much. ”
 
This comment was made by Suzane—Hello Suzane! I’m sure you’ve already passed through the process of liberation, conversion, but now you are in this process in which you have to know Jesus. And about what you have described to us in the comment … when you say you have a problem and that the problem is within you, it is the disappointments of the past. You haven’t gotten over them, you’ve tried to forgive your father but you’re still suspicious. You don’t give yourself to others, you’re not loving, you feel cold blooded… you look inside yourself and you are not the image you wish to be, nor what you believe it’s right to be. You know, you’ve heard at church what is right and what is wrong, and you’ve identified your imperfections, which is a very good sign because that is the way we come to Jesus. The way you’re writing, the way you’re talking…. and if at least you would say that to God, not in an emotional way. “What is in an emotional way, Viviane?” The emotional way is justly mentioning it in a way that you condemn yourself. “How? Aren’t these things wrong? “Yes! The things you have practiced Suzane, and you cybernaut that identify yourself with this comment, are unfair. God does not deserve this offering—what you’ve been, living in disappointment, being concerned with what others think of you, feeling inferior, thinking that God wants you perfect … He says, “Come to me all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. ”
 
He did not ask for you to come perfectly, my cybernaut friend. If that was the case we could never reach Him, but He calls you this way, as you are now. The intelligent way of being is believing what He offers you, believe in reaching Him and exposing what is within you, as you have done here and now—talking about your needs, your weaknesses, your mistakes … And here we can understand Suzane that your pain is not related to something outside, because you are not looking for your father, or people around you to change but you have seen your interior, you are looking towards yourself and you need to. You want to be just for God! You want to offer God an acceptable offering, not blind, not with a defect, but you want to give an offering that He is worthy of in which you honor Him with your own life. And this is what you’ve felt; this is your pain Suzane. Your pain is that your offering has not been acceptable, because you see yourself unjust, but this is the way, there is no other way to get to God, in a healthy or healed way, no! We reach God full of mistakes, sins, injustices, … and when we set out to hate, to feel pain in our own soul, because of our own injustice that we’ve offered to Him, then truly and indeed there is in my prayers, in your prayers, tears and rational words that express what’s inside of me and what is within you. This is what I say surrendering is, my cybernaut friend, it is when you expose all that is within you; everything you’ve seen that is unjust, and you don’t look for the devil’s accusations, but for the promise that God gave you. He said: “Come to me as you are, come to me all who are weary, burdened, and I will give you rest…” –So here I am Jesus! I want that water of life, I don’t want to be that person, I hate my injustice, I hate being this person for You, not only because of my reputation before men but because I want to offer myself to you. When you express this, from the depths of your soul, with sincerity, my cybernaut friend, it is in this moment that the Holy Spirit comes upon you.
 
Suzane, I see in your comment, something beautiful, beautiful … By being this way, Jesus sees you beautiful, and He is with open arms.
Now reveal this, look at the belief you have, and expose it with tears in your eyes, but without pity, without making yourself the victim. Because here, you don’t act as the victim, here you are recognizing your situation; you are assuming your condition!
 
So then speak! And assume your condition before God; surrender yourself at this moment! Look for a place to expose everything that’s inside of you, without apprehension, without fear.

And you will see the result of this. This is to be thirsty for the water of life my cybernaut friend, this is the water that Jesus wants to give you.

He doesn’t want you to be a problem, to carry the disappointments of the past, for them to manipulate your way of being. He doesn’t want what happened in your childhood to dictate the norms for your future. He wants through His Word, that you bring into existence what never existed in your life.

And that begins to exist, to become real, you begin to take possession of what He promised you when you believe, when you are willing, when you assume it, and when this pain exists, that cry out, it means that the time has come.

And the time is here, because you yourself, Suzane, have touched in your own wound; you didn’t need for Jesus to speak to you about your wound, better yet, the Holy Spirit is who has revealed to you who you have been so far. And you can be sure that you’re on the right path, and you will find, and you’ll find Him during this fast—that is, if you haven’t found Him yet, since we are on the 6th Day, and you made the comment on the 3rd Day!

Suzane run into His arms. Whoever sobbed, who sinned much, loved much. That is how I loved Jesus. It was how I saw myself, sinful…that’s why today I love a lot; that’s why I give my dreams, give my desires, give everything and submit myself to His will because I know what He has given me, He has given me life! And not only for me, but also for the people that are around me.
 
That is, I don’t pass disappointments of the past; on the contrary, I give what the Lord Jesus created within me. He made everything new within me, and this is His proposal my cybernaut friend. You, who perhaps did not understand what was to be thirsty, you didn’t understand how you should be to reach God; here we have a true story so you can understand what it is to surrender.
How do you see Suzane? Do you see her with criticism or in a beautiful way? I see her beautifully, because she was transparent, because she wants something just. And I praise and thank God because I have the certainty that it is solely the work of the Holy Spirit in the life of Suzane, and it has barely just begun.
 
Cybernaut, perhaps you ask, but how? Is it that painful? Yes, it is painful to see ourselves; but do not feel accused Suzane, feel loved because He made you see so that you can recognize and resolve what you hadn’t resolved yet.

From the moment you expose your life to Him, you talk about your weaknesses, He gives you strength, and not only that, but He will bring into existence the seal of the Holy Spirit. Because once baptized with the Holy Spirit, we receive strength to resolve all errors and weaknesses we find in our life.

That is the power of the Holy Spirit when He says: “… you shall receive power when you receive the Holy Spirit…” It is the power to solve everything, so do not feel ashamed, no! Feel privileged. You’ll understand this now, when the Holy Spirit touches you, my cybernaut friend. You’ll understand my words, because you’re going to love much, much— as I have loved, and not only that, but you are also going to be overflowing with living water for the people who are around you.
 
A big hug to you and tomorrow we will be back.