#2 Daniel’s Fasting : What’s Wrong With Me?

I have looked down on my sister who has what I have been fighting for. My prayer to God has been proud because I have been looking at myself as someone who goes to church, gives tithe, fasts and does everything right outwardly and have been jealous that she achieves so much without doing any of these things. I have wanted what she has just to fulfill my own ego, to prove that I can get it. But, I am jealous and miserable. I don’t want to be this way anymore and so I am going to fight against this pride and ego. Thank you for showing me how to change, because I have been so stuck.

Listening to this audio i found the message very deep, this spirit of comparison and compitition is especially strong with youth. It’s very easy to get caught up in comparing ourselves with what other people are doing. But the moment we take our eyes of God and put them on others we are no longer serving God in a way that pleases him. Humility can often be a very hard concept to understand, this also confused me at first because we often think that doing the work of God is humbling ourselves and when we are rebuked and corrected we often wonder why and think we don’t deserve this. Through many mistakes i have learnt this is also pride which stops us from understanding our wrong… We can’t depend on what we know and what we think as we live by faith which means we have to be flexible to change. Like a child knows little, I also have to daily accept that i know little and depend on God.

I truly thank God for using you because when we put our all into the 21 days, we truly come out with the victory and the Spirit of God within us. Before I listen to your audios, I ask God to give me His eyes so that I may examine myself and be honest with myself no matter how painful it might be. With this audio, I have realized that there has been a spirit of competition within me. Sometimes we want to be the best in everything so much that we don’t realize that we’re not doing it for God to be glorified but doing it to boost our ego. What an eye opener! If we don’t balance our desire to be the best, we will just be doing it to please ourselves; instead we must change our mindset and our behavior and truly humble ourselves and be submissive and able to accept rebuke and reproof. Having the Holy Spirit and being saved is nothing if we don’t change, plus being like a child will be more of a testimony to God and those around us instead of being competitive in order to feed our ego.