The Peony and me

I had never paid much attention to myself until I understood that to change something, to want something new you first need to realize that what is old can no longer be useful.

You decide to fight for something better.

This happens almost every day: when you discover a brand of laundry detergent that cleans and smells better and immediately change for that one. Or when you learn to drive you don’t want to ride the bus anymore. When you discover the benefits of a healthy diet your body immediately rejects what is unhealthy. We’re constantly looking for the new and latest technology, for that magical weight loss pill or for that perfect shampoo for our hair type.

But when it comes to our inner being, our character, or to see whom we truly are, why do we hesitate?

When I began investigating my wild and unknown inner being I began to understand the reason for many of my actions. I have already written about how I realized how horrible my inner being was, but now I want to tell you another part of me, something very interesting that I found out about myself with the help of my Best Friend.

We were preparing for a conference when looking at some pictures of flowers I found one that just caught my attention. Surely you’ve had that feeling before of an image that attracted you and you felt connected somehow and this produced a satisfaction, as if you’ve been searching for it for a long time and finally found it.

If I hadn’t been aware of my reactions and discoveries it would’ve remained as a simple joyous emotion. Some dear friends surprised me with a bouquet of peonies, just like the flowers that had caught my attention so much. That day, I was really grateful for their beautiful gesture. I put those flowers in a vase and sat down to observe them. From far they look like a cabbage. They were still closed, without much color, and had no appeal. But as I got closer I began to admire every detail they were unlike anything I’ve seen. It had a very unique interior design, it showed its delicacy slowly you would only be able to appreciate it if you had the patience to wait for it to open. A sweet voice whispered – “You’re like that.”

These photos were taken just at that moment – the joy I felt after understanding who I was and for the first time I was able to admire my inner nature.

Many like roses, daisies, chrysanthemums; their beauty is evident to all. But not everyone is like a rose… I discovered that I am so different in a way that might not be appreciated at first sight, but those who are interested and approach me to observe the details will see inside and really get to know how I am: Special.