Meditation – What have you seen in your life? God?
- 21
- Oct
- 2016
21th October | Friday | Matthew 5:8
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.
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21th October | Friday | Matthew 5:8
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.
kadian
15th November 2016 at 17:07
Although I have been in the church for over 7 years I have seen the opposite of God in my life. I have kept most of the memories of the different abuses, failures, disappointment, what someone said, did or didn’t do, to me it was not hatred it was just indicators of the many reasons why I should just not trust anyone which I don’t .Now I am fighting against these but after storing them for such a long time I have developed so much thought or feelings (don’t know which one) towards people in general which I am ashamed of talking about. I have explained all these to God but it seems to me that no matter what I I can never please Him probably because of the doubts I have of Him and Jesus coming from an atheist to an agnostic point. I will believe in a moment and don’t argue with Him a lot because if I had a choice I would not have been the sperm to enter my mother egg. Sometimes my feelings get the better of me because of the internal battle that I don’t know how to explain is so strong they are days I feel like giving up because my financial life which has been my main focus can easily be solved but my conscience would bother me and due to how my father and his relative treated my mother prior to her death I always wanted a prosperous life before I enter into relationship because i don’t think that man are oxygen or should be treated as such. I started to really focusing on my spiritual life over a month ago because of the unhappiness and confusion about my purpose of life because everything I tried no matter how great the ideas are they either fails or delay which is frustrating because I just keep on changing career path without success. I seek the Holy Spirit but I want to know is it ok to seek Him for Him to remove the doubts because i find it hard to trust in the unseen when I don’t trust the persons that I see and all those thoughts or feelings that I have towards people because I often heard that I should seek the holy spirit to serve or win soul which to me don’t make much sense if I have doubts about Him or if my soul is not save how can I have desire to win souls I know I have been selfish which I am working on but that is just complicated. I am awaiting a response from you
Thelma Silva
25th November 2016 at 18:56
Dear Kadian,
From what you wrote here it seems to me that you are not acting on faith. The Bible says: “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Heb. 11:1
I understand that you may have many doubts, but you are the only one that can put an end to this. You mention that you have been in the church for over 7 years, its time for you to revolt against your situation and take action. There will always be reasons that will want to make you give up or doubt, but you decide if you will listen to those doubts or negative thoughts.
As it says in the verse above, faith is the EVIDENCE of things NOT YET SEEN. Get it? Even without seeing or feeling like it we must use our faith and take action, doing so, surely God will act in your life. But you must be in perseverance, its not just having faith or believing today, we must use our faith everyday.
You need to give your life on the Altar 100%, which means, putting all your feelings, doubts, problems on the Altar and start to depend on God and practice His will.
Faith is not a feeling it is an action a decision.
Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed. John 20:29
God bless you.
Natalie
14th November 2016 at 19:57
I learned theough this meditation that I had been letting the frustrations overtake me and these have been trying to make me bitter. For a while I have been a bit stuck because I couldnt understand why I was have hurt feelings toward my situation. Now I understand. Amen.