I wanted to share my experience in these eight months of marriage with my life on the altar.<\/p>\n
Right after I got married I moved to another country and had difficulty adapting to this new place. It was a new world for me, another culture, another language, etc.
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We went to live with another couple and that\u2019s when I started feeling insecure. I feared I wouldn\u2019t be accepted. I began to feel inferior and when the wife said something, to me trying to teach me, I got offended, sad, and didn\u2019t say anything. Inside me I felt I couldn\u2019t cook, clean, or be like her.<\/p>\n
I did everything not to show my husband the whirlwind of feelings I had inside of me (but he saw it in my eyes). He always asked me what was wrong and what was going on with me and even if I told him nothing was going on, he would get sad because that showed him that I didn\u2019t trust him enough to tell him the truth. That distanced us, but I continued being the same way.<\/p>\n
Months went by and I continued to suffer for not knowing how to share, trust, and because I didn\u2019t recognize that I needed to change. Maybe because all my life I lived alone in my own world and even after finding Jesus I remained in my own world, I didn\u2019t open up to anyone. This was the reason why I faced many difficulties in relation to the other wives. I couldn\u2019t make friends with them because I wouldn\u2019t open up to them, and also because I felt inferior to them because I was just starting in the work of God. I was worried about what they would think of me if I said something so I stood shut and would isolate myself. And once again, the lack of confidence in myself and in others made \u200b\u200bme a sad and useless pastor ‘s wife.<\/p>\n
Soon after I went through another change in my life. In a short period of time, my husband and I were sent to another country and I would have to leave behind the little knowledge I had and the few people I knew to start all over again. In this new country I faced the same difficulties as before and in addition to adapting to the climate and new people I now had the opportunity to be different and act differently, but I didn\u2019t…<\/p>\n
I was well received there. I even saw a small improvement in me, I talked a little more, but whenever I looked around I found myself alone. I had the opportunity to do the rush, and I decided that this would be my opportunity to change because I wanted to be different. I asked God to change me, but it was then that I understood that I was the one who had to use my faith and go against my feelings to change.<\/p>\n
From that moment on my marriage changed. I was able to tell my husband everything that happened to me and began to share my life with him.<\/p>\n
God saw my intention to change and it so happened that my Sister came to the city where I was and asked to talk to me. That day I told her everything that was inside of me. I was honest without fearing what she might think of me. I was so afflicted; I remember that I cried in front of her. It was only for a few minutes, but after I spoke to her I felt free from this burden I had inside. I told her I was proud and about all the difficulties I had getting along with the other wives. I told her everything.<\/p>\n
She didn\u2019t judge me, she understood and counseled me. She told me the experiences she also had, even in God’s work.<\/p>\n
\u00a0I learned that change happens every day when we recognize our mistakes, our failures, and we don\u2019t hide behind our fears and deceitful heart.<\/p>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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